rants

There are somethings that you can share with the world, others, which you would like to hold it close to your chest. Obviously, its never permanent but the things that you hold close, tend to become barriers in developing and connect with other people or experiences in general. We tend to hold on to these things, which build a wall around our minds. This wall, over a period of time, becomes impenetrable which also leads you, as a person to cut the rest of the world off from your self, never wanting to experience anything new nor looking for anything. You end up becoming a shell of a person, something like a shadow of what you are supposed to be, just because you hold on to all those emotions, memories and experiences.

The simplest and often the most difficult thing to do is forgive the person and let go of the emotion. These are things which are never taught to you in school or college. Maybe there should be a course, Life 101, where everyone is given a basic understanding of the things we can expect and how to handle them. I guess, emotions are not a large part of most people, and to express them, in what ever way possible iss not really the done thing.I guess i'm in a very ranting mood, especially cause i had some expectations of reciprocation which were not fulfilled. Maybe i'm expecting a lot, or maybe, i'm not communicating my expecations, or may be, this is how life is supposed to be. A build up of emotions, which has to find a release . I dont know, i'm just rambling again. BUt i guess, its like talking to my self, no one will know and no one will care.

Bitchy People

So this is not the first time i've spoken about things like this, but i guess i've never wanted to waste my time writing about it.
Then again, i'm sitting here in star bucks, waiting for a customer to meet me and nothing to do but kill time and eves drop on conversations.

Delhi, has a very interesting crowd, one which i've had the fortune of not ever meeting in bangalore. The kind of conversations which i've overheard ( never want to participate ) are often amusing and as a watcher, bring out a lot of giggles in my overly composed self.

There is obviously a heavy air of people who have some connection or the other with politics and the political class or should i call them a cast, i'm not sure. The politician is obviously the elite. of the city, with everyone wanting to talk about them, to them and wanting to be them. Even the kids are not spared, for example, a certain politician's son was caught smoking and how the principal had to call the parent ( who is a politician ) and such an embarrassment it was for the parent. Obviously there is a ting of schadenfreude which one experiences when the elite get humiliated, and then there is the life of an 15 year old kid, who knows the pressure of having being an elite and living up to the standard and where one slip will become a black mark for his entire life. The city and the people seem to live on that, feed off that, and if they could, they would record every aspect of that to keep for a later date, rewind and enjoy the mental masturbation.

Then, there are the people who need to check in, hastag and so on at ever juncture of their life. Its as if their entire worth and existence depends on what their peers think about them and the insecurity they face when they have not got enough likes. ( wow, they are so easy to exploit ). They are some sort of slaves to their masters ( the virtual media ) and seem to remain a perfect human specimen throughout their lives. The pings and likes seem to give them the perfect orgasm which no human contact gives them. Comments give them the soul shattering, loud screaming feeling which they cannot experience otherwise. They obviously are deprived, but maybe not. I think its the bliss of ignorance which protects their not so formed brains. If every wrinkle inside the cranium represents the depth and experience a person has gained, they would probably be as smooth as hema malini's cheeks ( taking the line from one of our political class ) ..

I'd love to go on, however, my customer is here and i dont want to waste productive time for unproductive things.